Another note
Tuesday November 28th 3:00am
I've been working on gifts these last few days and I really do love making things for folks. I hope I can finish everything I have planned but we'll have to see.
There's still music to add here too. I have some tracks in mind. I've been thinking about making one of those fan shrine type pages but it's just covers of OP and EDs from shows I've been enjoying. The current jujutsu kaisen ED is a favourite. I'd love to give it a go. Good japanese practice! There's a younger version of me in my head telling me anime covers are cringe but I've decided cringe is dead actually and it will be fun so I'm just gonna do it. Maybe I can just make it a blog post? idk. I wish I had the energy to keep up with all my damn ideas. *sigh*
A poem
Saturday November 11th 3:15am
You push me through the starlit reflections,
Your hands-
Guiding my wheels along.
The seaside sound of cars coasting by us.
You tell me you liked the pottery class,
As if it is a secret-
As if those hands and beaming face didn’t lay your heart bare to me already.
There is still white dust beneath my fingernails.
Another wheelchair knocks into mine; a friend says goodbye.
I pick at the bites on my arms,
Imagine an empty lot is a cafe.
There we bake fantastical cheesecakes and breads
Green plants painting every spare inch,
We make pottery down the street every week.
You point ahead to a restaurant
A sign, dripping in purple-pink
And I think- I have to hold this second somewhere safe
Pressed perfectly between then and now to dry.
Thoughts about this site and other things
Sunday October 15th 1:56am
I'm struck lately by a sense of urgency when it
comes to putting down my thoughts and making art.
I'm suddenly feeling so much less precious about the
quality of things I make and much more concerned with
the possibility that I could just... die one day and
all the art I didn't make because I wasn't 'good
enough' yet will never be made. How sad would that be?
I think I've spent too much time waiting to get better,
health-wise and art-wise. But maybe I'm being too harsh on myself,
maybe I just needed some time to figure all this out. Maybe 26 is right on time.
I hope so.
